February 2012
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Square one comes full circle.
What the fuck do I do now?
Everything I was
Everything I wanted to be
Everything I was proud of
Gone.
My confidence?
Disappeared.
My days are less exciting than before.
My perfect summer has ended.
I am dawdling about in a sea of ugly consistency.
I’m floating meanderingly in a fucking ocean of “I don’t know what do you want to do...
My life is bittersweet.
Since returning, things have not been as they should.
I have not been as I should have.
I have not been up to par.
I have not been who I am.
Like always, mine is the last to fall into place.
But for once I am not too late.
Whenever I stare ahead now, it’s as if I face a burning sun on my horizon.
It’s as if my goal is gallant and clear.
It is bright,...
There was Frank leaving.
It was a few miraculous hours of us just being kids.
There was saying goodbye to Michael.
I will never forget the look in your eyes.
There was Greece.
I will never be shaken in such a way. I hated and loved it. I will never be the same.
There was me versus idiots.
I learned being yourself is the best way to meet someone. Not just being a side of who you are.
There...
holy fucking tits
where the fuck do I even begin.