February 2012
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Square one comes full circle.
What the fuck do I do now?
Everything I was
Everything I wanted to be
Everything I was proud of
Gone.
My confidence?
Disappeared.
My days are less exciting than before.
My perfect summer has ended.
I am dawdling about in a sea of ugly consistency.
I’m floating meanderingly in a fucking ocean of “I don’t know what do you want to do...
My life is bittersweet.
Since returning, things have not been as they should.
I have not been as I should have.
I have not been up to par.
I have not been who I am.
Like always, mine is the last to fall into place.
But for once I am not too late.
Whenever I stare ahead now, it’s as if I face a burning sun on my horizon.
It’s as if my goal is gallant and clear.
It is bright,...
There was Frank leaving.
It was a few miraculous hours of us just being kids.
There was saying goodbye to Michael.
I will never forget the look in your eyes.
There was Greece.
I will never be shaken in such a way. I hated and loved it. I will never be the same.
There was me versus idiots.
I learned being yourself is the best way to meet someone. Not just being a side of who you are.
There...
holy fucking tits
where the fuck do I even begin.
August 2011
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You know what,
you are despicable.
I am so fucking disappointed in who you are, and even who you try to be.
You are sick and disgusting
and I am disgusted that I feel so strongly about this
This
is fucking stupid
And I absolutely cannot believe you threw yourself head deep into a situation you know nothing about.
You overheard a phone conversation?
Congratulations, you’re an idiot.
...
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Holy fucking christ.
Genevieve, you have proven to me now more than ever that your actions do not match your words.
You never told me you loved him.
You never told me you told him.
How can you expect to forbid me to speak with another friend?
Where the fuck is your logic.
You cannot tell me who I can and cannot hang out with.
It is not my fault you didn’t express to me the seriousness...
That night
was amazing.
I was exhausted, I was tired, I ached everywhere
But I let go
of all my insecurities
I cared nothing of the negatives
And I let myself open to happiness
And that night,
that’s all I felt.
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Genevieve, I am sorry things are turning out to be lesser than what we had hoped.
You are a beautiful ray of sunshine that continues to brighten my days. But I’ve noticed the words you preach don’t match with your actions.
I’m sorry to say you’re unaware of your hypocrisy. Your deep level is not where I thought you were. I definitely thought you up to be more than what...
So much and so little has happened.
Mentally, I feel I’m wandering down this winding hallway. Everything has been so foggy and unclear to me lately.
But I’m sensing the brass facts coming through hard.
The reality of my reality is coming into check, and I’m aware this might hurt.
But I won’t let that stop me. Today, I know better. I am stronger than my past. I am...
July 2011
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HOLY SHIT FRANK
I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU
I NEVER would’ve guessed.
You have no idea how happy hearing that made me.
I feel like you care.
Somewhere really, truly, very deep down, you care.
I’m almost positive you’re afraid of human emotion.
Your distance made me only more sure that you didn’t want to get to know me.
But I think you just were following my lead.
I get...
I can’t decide on anything anymore.
Everything is so fucking up in the air and I feel like I’ve lost my purpose.
Moreso, my direction.
I’ve lost sense of what is right and wrong. I feel out of touch
And overall, just numb to most stimulation.
Maybe that’s why I’m becoming reliant on sex.
Who knows.
You know life has become difficult, when you suddenly don’t like expressing yourself
June 2011
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Frank, I cannot begin to express my frustration with you.
Holy mother of fuck.
I really don’t like you right now.
But I’m going to fuck you.
I’m going to make that dream become a reality.
I’m going to dominate you.
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Genevieve you are too amazing for my words.
I don’t know how I’m going to handle having your presence and support 24/7
I’m still so touched you want to move in with me
I think it’s been a few weeks since I’ve agreed.
I just…I don’t want to disappoint you.
You really seem to like me, and I love thinking of you as a sister..
I just don’t want to...
May 2011
2 posts
I feel like,
I’m starting to embrace my sexuality.
I was confident in myself before, but now, I feel so much more open about everything.
I’m happy.
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Oh Frank.
Oh Frank.
You and your fucking pink toenails.
I’m still dying over that.
Also,
You definitely are talented with your tongue and soft lips.
Oh boy.
April 2011
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I want a guy who will literally fucking adore my curls. I want him to beg me to let him play with my hair. I want him to run his fucking hands through it. I want him to tell me it arouses him; that it excites him.
He needs to feel this way, so I can stop feeling so fucking self-conscious about it.
I feel like my hair itself is intimidating, and I need the reassurance that it’s not driving...
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Alex, why are you doing this.
You’re mad with the way I’ve been living my life.
I understand you’re mad that I haven’t been making time for my friends.
But I am fucking changing.
I am on my own, and becoming a new person.
As much as I’d love to be there for Elaina, for you, for Whitney,
I just can’t.
I can’t keep pretending I can help everyone when...
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YOU KNOW WHAT IS SO FUCKING FUNNY.
Frank and Dan have the same birthday.
I am really happy with my current outlook on life:
Taking each day as it comes.
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Oh Frank. What am I to do with you.
I really don’t know.
You’re so.. inspiring, in the worst kind of way.
You’ve done so much shit, you’ve said so much shit, and you’ve put yourself through so much shit and you’re only 24? (I think…)
People tell me you have done terrible things.
I can’t say you give the best advice ever, but I can say you are...
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Alex, seriously, what the fuck are you thinking.
You’ve ditched me 3 times now in the past couple of weeks to go hang out with Whitney and get completely fucked up.
Like, just because my phone fucking dies CONSTANTLY doesn’t mean our plans go to fucking waste.
Homie you should know by now that I always stick to my word, and I ALWAYS make time for my friends. Like I’m offended...
Today was actually a really nice day.
For once, I’m looking forward to tomorrow.
And I think things will be okay.
Disappointments are fucking everywhere, and I am...
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So now you’re caught up on some girl?
Perfect
fucking
timing.
Just when I had agreed to the date.
JUST when I thought there was a chance for something exciting…
Ugh. This always happens.
There’s always something that gets in the way.
I understand though.
And I really respect the fact that you told me before things got ugly.
I just wish I had more time.
I just wish I...
I'm so fucking sick of being single.
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I really have no idea what I’m going to do about you, specifically.
Like, you literally told me “Something about you makes me want to take you upstairs and make your toes pop.” minutes after we first met.
But you’re a bartender. How many girls do you tell that to on a daily basis? I’ve heard about the number of times you’ve fucked girls over. That’s why...
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Sometimes, I don’t know how I feel about you anymore.
About either of you.
Both of you are always either too caring or too distracted.
I never get either of you at your best anymore.
I love you both to death…
but as two of my closest friends, ever, I feel like you’re both changing a lot.
And that really fucking scares me.
Because I don’t know what I’ll do...
I miss the feeling of another guy's skin.
March 2011
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I have an epileptic cousin who types like she’s fucking retarded.
She’s a smart and amazing individual, but she can be really slow at times.
I want to show her the funny of the internet, but I also want to make sure she doesn’t get her feelings hurt.
I mean she types the same way everyone else does, only she’s serious.
omg i love house!!!!!!!!! you dont evn...